Gearin up for Bowling Green....

Im driving to Kentucky on Friday for a Jamey concert...SOOO excited!! I also hear rumors that I might get to see a distillery? And some horses? Maybe that is if I am awake? Im fairly certain that after working every day this week, I'll be ready to take a freakin nap. I might even sleep through the concert!! lol, yeah right. Ill be posting pictures of it, of course. If you ask Wifey, she'll say I could just post pictures of other concerts now and they'd look just the same. lol. oh ye of little faith. Jamey will wear a different colored shirt this time, I can just feel it!! Peace out homies!

Internalizing.

So, its taken me some time to realize this is actually whats happening. Its foreign to me, I talk about EVERYTHING. Literally, there isnt much I wont touch on. Anything from what we had for breakfast to strange places Ive found toilet paper...Its all fair game. It occurred to me, however, that I am completely reticent to speak about whats going on in the foster care classes (MAPP). They are completely overwhelming to me! We've talked about poor kids with cigarette burns on their backs (and they are 18 months old), poor kids who've been so sexually abused they cant socialize in public without nervously masturbating. Poor kids who eat ramen noodles that their 5 year old big sister warms up for them in the sink. Kids that sleep on the floor because their parents take the bed. Kids that know about porn and 5 year old kids that know how to make a bottle for their 6 month old little sister. Its terrible. I could sit in a ball and cry for days. Or, I can visualize myself stabbing their ignorant parents in the eyes with hot rods.

I, myself, need to run away, and I cant imagine how these lost children feel! I am so scared, but so very thankful that life has lead us in this direction. I have an amazing urge to make an impact on these kids. Its making me violent because I need it to be happening now. Ive wanted to fight since we've started it. Im not interested in ANYONEs negative opinion. Anyone. I mean that. I get it, we get it. Its scary, inevitably, our hearts will suffer, our home will suffer, and our life will suffer. We get it. Its ours though, to throw into this, completely. In advance, I apologize to our family and friends. They too, will be involved, and they too will suffer broken hearts, but hopefully, we mean enough to all of you to give it a shot, with us. Side by side. Not only will we go through hard times, but we will hear laughter, and playing and happy sounds and happy times, I cant wait to be the people that expose a child to a puppy for the first time, or takes a child to the zoo for the first time, or the beach, or to visit a family that feeds him/her and holds him and loves him, and gives him attention because he/she is adorable, not because they can now get a beer out of the fridge. Amazing prospect. Truly humbling.

Ok, this is all over the place. Im sorry. I had alot to say, cause, after all, ive been internalizing.

And then, as a special haha for a friend of mine (true story):
A man came to my house today. From far away, he looked like you. Then, his name was Daniel. My dog bit his calf. He lied and said it didnt happen. He was bleeding.

Ok, random enough for ya'll? Love ya :) -k

The little baby chickens meet the big chickens...

I guess that neither one of those is accurate. The baby chickens arent really babies, and the big ones are still not actually that big but whatever. Anyway, We're gonna introduce them tonight....im pretty excited!! We'll see how it goes! Thats all I have for you...

This weekend ROCKED!!!!

Ok, so I bucked up and went to the beach alone. Ive NEVER done anything like that before, so it was a really big deal (to me, but everyone else thought I was being a freak). Im SO glad I did it!!!

So, first, I must've looked really lost, cause when I first got there, this really nice group of people "adopted" me. They had me sit with them and hang out with them during waiting part and then the opening band. I was really uncomfortable at first but quickly got over it! Towards the end of the opening band, we all went to the front, and I got front and center with the microphone. Basically, I could've jerked the microphone stand off stage if I was so inclined, lol. Anyway, when Jamey came out, I was so close, it was PERFECT!! He played for almost 3 hours... Lots of songs Id never heard him do live before..

Afterwards, I ran into Arlis, who realized I had the jamey shirt, and he said he was taking me on the bus to get it signed. After I finished vomiting from nerves, I agreed that sounded like a great idea. lol. Unfortunately, in the interim, I picked up a straggler girl with a picture to be signed, and Arlis wouldnt take us both on the bus. Oh well. He did take my shirt and girls picture in to get signed though, and after about 20 minutes, Jamey decided to come OUT and sign my shirt for me :) So, we hung out and chatted about 15-20 minutes before they had to pull out (the other bus had already left). He gave me a hard time about the shirt and wanted to draw on it, so he drew a picture of himself (hilarious, btw). Nobody else (except picture girl) and myself got a meet & greet. I was stoked :)

Then....Jess called me at 9 and woke me up (after getting in bed at 5am, I was stilllllll exhausted) I took the fastest shower in the history of mankind, brushed my teeth with my finger (forgot my toothbrush) and headed out of Myrtle Beach. She and I got to my house within 10 minutes of each other (I was racing her when I wasnt falling asleep driving, lol). We ate a quick meal and headed out to Danville (she drove, thankfully). I made it to Greensboro before I went into a 30 minute coma. The Danville concert kicked butt! We both bought us some fancy shmancy shirts (Jamey shirts,of course) and will be stylin in some upcoming shows :). James Otto was semi-gay, but has cool points for helping with In Color. After the show, Arlis took my shirt to get it signed, and jamey signed over top of his name (he's a turd) and then had Otto sign the back (*Note:IF James Otto had signed the front, I would've thrown a huge fit and cried, lol).

The entire weaekend was soooo busy, I feel like it was just, Idk, flying (not with angels, mind you). I cant WAIT for our next trips! We're gonna have so much FUN!!!!

So Shoot me, I lied.

Still blogging! Headin to the beach today for a Jamey concert! WHooHooo!! Updates when I get back :)

Im not blogging anymore.

So There.